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I haven't been super emotionally healthy, recently, but I'm working on it.

I had a pretty bad bout of feeling *awful* last week, especially while Lindsey was out of town. Everything felt hopeless, I felt like I couldn't get anything done that I cared about. I felt dumb and annoying, and I was furious that anybody was anywhere near me, or saying words, or making other sounds. Something like misophonia, to the extent that that's a thing. And I was embarrassed about like my entire existence.

:-(

Part of it was that I was really frustrated about work, felt like I wasn't making any progress or learning things fast enough, frustrated about my PhD, frustrated about not running much recently (my connective tissue's been acting up a bit recently, so I haven't been running)...

I need to take better care of myself. These are all fixable things; I could stretch better and do more strength training. I need to spend more time on my PhD so it doesn't seem so intractable and eventually gets done. I could find somewhere more quiet to work in the office. You only get one you.

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_tove
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Time:2016-06-22 12:15 am (UTC)
That sounds super rough! I'm glad you have some ideas about paths forward and I wish you efficacy in pursuing them.

Also, I am glad about your existence.
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oniugnip
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Time:2016-06-23 06:01 am (UTC)
*hugs!*

Thank you. Likewise, I'm glad about yours -- you're pretty rad, Lea!
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